Cloud Of Doubt Poem by Laquory Jones

Inside me laid this cloud of doubt
I internally shout inside my brain
Is where these internal bouts began
To crowd around I'm striking chords
They're becoming harder for me to ignore
What does it take to be humbly sound
It's as if I'm lost and looking to be found
Feet pacing up and down step by step
Looking for solid ground emotions inside
Me grows becoming more desperate as
Time starts to chime in intervals
Richie's in need of a miracle
You might find this comical as I try to
Navigate through life's thresholds
But I've hit a fork upon its crossroads

Perhaps I'm what you call "a lost soul"
Looking to my left wiping the beads of
Sweat beginning to drip down my neck
How much farther do I have to run in depths
So many things in life that I already regret
I have nothing left dropping to my knees
As the sun began beating down upon me
Vaguely searching for some relief
Under some dying trees I gasp and I wheeze
"Richie you can't give up" continued echoing
From the rivers deep look how far you've
Come along from where you first began
I'll admit some paths we take we'll never
Understand and nothing goes as planned
It's all in efforts to help you in the end
To become a better man (you're destined)

Well Richie what happened when you looked
To your right I continued forging my way to
New heights against the volatile wind
The world becomes lonely when you don't have
Any friends no amount of tears can fathom
The pain of my pen holding back tears as I
Gasp lack of oxygen as I tightened my grip
Emotions shearing from deep inside
Tears and rips glass water half full in my
Satchel telling myself that I was prepared
For battle inside I knew what I was after
But in the background all I could hear was
Laughter when life gives you lemons
You're forced to make lemonade

Okay Richie you're now 28 I thought I had it all
Down and painstakingly mastered but I had
Life mistakenly backwards and that right
There spelled out disaster inside I guess I'm
A coward always was scared of failure and
Just then clouds began to gather telling me
Weather was going to play a factor thinking
All hopes was lost I'm mentally shattered
Exhausted and battered now I'm running on
Empty I can't always count on others to save
Me so I did what any man would continued to
Trudge I came too far I'm not giving up making
It out of the wilderness finding my way home
All just to show you that you too can overcome

3/11/2019