Dark Places Poem by Laquory Jones

Some things in life makes me wanna escape that's how I've
Felt as of late perhaps I'm tempting faith so many things left
On my plate perhaps it's fate just then eyes opens and widens
Awake feelings of despair I could never shake I can sense
Hate I'd wished it would just evaporate perhaps it will some
Day but not today because there are some things in life
That's hard to swallow I'm beginning to wallow my feelings
Growing shallow with all this crap that I've bottled up so many
Things got fizzled up (when will enough really be enough?)
I sit back to reciprocate at least twice so many things
I've had to sacrifice to the point I've swallowed knives while
Getting stabbed in the back beyond belief I can show you
Scabs but I've kept things on wax, chilled and relaxed still
People don't have a clue on how to act while I'm cutting
Slack watching how they react by sapping the life right out
Of me shortening my longevity weighing on me heavily

Lately I'm feeling the urge as problems begins to emerge
So I begin to diverge as anger begins to surge but my
Cup done spilleth over friendships has runneth their course
With people not showing an ounce of remorse it's like I'm
Speaking in Morse code the moment I left myself open and
Exposed that's when more problems then arose I guess
In the end this is the life that I chose but it's
People that I felt were family that hurts the most I mean
No hurt could ever come from those just then volcanoes erupts
As the lava flows melting everything in it's path now witnessing
The aftermath of debris emotions still channeling
Their energy by sinking through my suppressed
Memories endlessly until I'm constantly
Remembering the moment I had reached my
Breaking point with everything crashing all at once
Now reflecting back to the point where
People tell you that everything will be okay but
We both know deep down mentally that it will
Never be throwing me back to my pain tendencies
And I guess that's how it will always be until eternity

The End
2/20/2017