And now I am starting to make promises I can't keep.
I mean them at the moment, but there are hours to go before
tomorrow, and memories to fade in at prey to haunt me.
I think I want to do something that seems like the right thing.
At what cost to me though? I know I will plummet into paranoia
and fear and that vein of repulsion that spirals sometimes into
that terrible unmentionable: suicidal impulses. No. I can not
keep to my promise. I have to be selfish. I have to do more than
just barely survive. I deserve to do more than merely keep my promises
that were dumb ones in the first place.
Julia a friend of mine who helped me recover from an illness said the same as you, sometimes you have to selfish to survive. Great poem.10+ added to my poems list. Thank you.
It's hard to teach yourself to be selfish, especially when you've felt the sting of other peoples' selfishness, but sometimes you have to be to emotionally and mentally survive.
No. I can not/keep to my promise....we are human beings, many times we fail to keep our promise but if anyone can keep it, that's great as it is said: if you want to keep, keep your promise! An excellent work....10
We are eager to keep our promises! But when the time comes, we fail to keep them. We have several reasons to falter in our decisions. It is human nature! First we have to ensure our own well being, then only think of keeping the promises made to others. A natural tendency of man is honestly confessed.
Thank you for your readership of my poems and as well your incredibly accurate comments. It feels good to be so understood!
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
An honest sentiment, acknowledgment of not being able to keep your promise is in itself a brave admittance which often is just a brave persons plea of help to oneself. More often than not such a recognition results still in the promise being kept. Great write!