Shards Await You Poem by Eila Mahima Jaipaul

I lay there
cold and alone
with only the hum of the fluorescent lights
... and thoughts of you
to remind me I'm still here.
as I drift in drug induced sleep
I recall your scent
your arms
your smile
the way you looked at me
with awe and
an eagerness to please
I pretend you are holding my hand
your lips at the corner of my eyes
kissing my tears away
it was slow but without pain
that will come later.
torn and gone
I find myself broken,
yet again.
mild complications
but no worries
its only cancer
it will go away.

slowly I woke
from my dreams
trying to pick myself up
nauseated and dizzy
I drove myself home
searing, stabbing
intense pain
without ceasing
I curl up in a ball
body and soul
injured
in agony
and I rest
and I wait
for you to return again to me
in my dreams.