A Confession Poem by banamala sen

I get up at middle of night
And start thinking of you.
You may not believe me,
But that's what I do.
I can't sleep, unless I think about you,
At least for a moment.
 
It gets very dark, it gets very lonely,
I wish I could talk to you,
About the few days,
We had been together,
And all the days we were apart -
When the summers came with a gorgeous sun,
When the winters came with many frosty nights,
Year after year,
And you didn't even think about me!
 
You are going to protest here,
And say, you did think about me,
At long summer days, at lonely winter nights,
Only you didn't know where I was!
I was there, all the time,
In your heart, if you listened carefully
what your heart had to say,
But you ignored probably.
 
The little girl who captured your heart,
Is really powerful,
She comes back again and again,
No matter what you say,
No matter you try to forget her,
erase from your life,
She just drops in, the way she used to before,
And dangerously charms you to forget critical things
with her beguiling smile!
 
How can you forget her?
How can you erase her from your life?
She became part of you.
I know you have tried,
I know you were almost successful,
But not entirely!
She took your heart without any hesitation,
You had no other option
But to give it away.
So don't repent now,
Don't regret now,
Be thankful for the most precious thing in your life,
Life has been kind to you!
 
You told me you were in a dreamland,
When one showery day, like today, with incessant rain,
You came to see me, that was your goal,
To take that much trouble,
and I had no idea!
If I could, I would take that day away from the history of mankind,
Because how cruel was I,
To be so wrapped-up in my own world,
To be so blind!
 
 
 
I get up at middle of night
And think about what could have been,
How my life and your life could have intertwined
in a perfect harmony!
Every time I remember the day both of us were in a dreamland,
And I can't believe I let it go,
A love, a pure feeling, rarely experienced in one lifetime!
I believe I have to come back to this earth again and again
to experience that dawn, that evening,
Which brought the tenderest of feelings and purest of wishes,
To two hearts.