Choice Poem by Deborah Cromer

So sad I have become, witho no more reason to hold on and live
I have been able to somehow let go, I have learned to forgive
I miss you, I miss you so much, you are my love so true
I cannot take this lonliness any longer, I am always and forever blue

Just one sign from you to show me that yes, yes you still care
In my face always though, showing me you two are still the pair
One more day of hearing about you both, or having to see you and her
I will not make it, I have no more strength and fight left to exist or endure

I have tried for so long to keep making it through another lonesome day
It is time to give up, time to let go, you are hers and I cannot stay
I need you, I dream of you so much, I imagine we are together again
I miss your strong, loving hands, touching and feeding my hungry skin

Without you I am dying, I cannot live without your life giving touch
For too long I have been without you, I have missed you so very much
No more can I be without you and I understand you do not care or know
Tortue, pain, and suffering are my company, playing with me so slow

Hurting me with lonliness, only to show me she is still together with you
Side by side, both of you always, in everything you want to do
Her and you, you and her, right past me and up into my face
You have made your choice, you have put her right in my special place

You took her, you have her, you keep her and I am always alone
No cards, no notes, no nothing, not even a message left on my phone
You will never be with me in love like before, I have decided to believe
No more moments, no gifts, no presents to preciously receive

I thought I could do it, thought I could make it through, thought I could try
My only peace, the only answer, my only way out is to quietly die