Trust?

I thought you were nice
I thought I had found your heart
I ignored other's advice
Thinking I was being smart
But you lied through your teeth
Everytime you said you loved me
I was clueless for weeks
Inside I felt ugly
Now thinking of you holding me
Makes me feel betrayed and used
Why would you lie so much to me
Pretending wasn't something you had to do
I regret letting you in
And every time we _
I get nautious hearing the name Ben
I feel like a thrown out slut