Amanda Lukas

Rookie (Ft. Lauderdale, FL)

(.3) An Acquaintance Asked Me Why I Wasn'T Smiling - Poem by Amanda Lukas

Because Christmas was her favorite holiday.
I remember laughing
with her while wrapping the oddly-shaped presents
she'd bought at K-Mart.
I remember the gifts 'from Santa'
which she'd sneak under our (very small) tree
in the middle of the night.
I remember when she climbed onto the wagon
just for me...
And I remember her face when she politely
declined a glass of spiced egg nog.
How loud her voice rang out
over all the dresses and ties and vacant eyes
when she yelled out 'Merry fucking Christmas'
at our last Christmas party together...
Make that her last Christmas party ever.
I remember her bright smiles
and how nobody knew the sadness
they covered up.

And for years to come,
I'll remember sitting with you
and drinking my Miller Light
and what my response was
when you asked me
why I wasn't smiling like usual.

Comments about (.3) An Acquaintance Asked Me Why I Wasn'T Smiling by Amanda Lukas

  • (2/1/2006 3:13:00 PM)

    Is the girl dead? That is the message I get from this. A great poem. If she is, Im sorry to hear it. (Report) Reply

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  • (12/24/2005 11:10:00 AM)

    poignant, Amanda. Most poignant. A bit of understatement here works well, you do the job by suggesting the 'main event' and describing the surrounding details. (Report) Reply

  • (12/22/2005 11:02:00 AM)

    I think you might be as haunted by the past as I am..
    honestly, I found myself in this piece... it's funny though, everyday without them hurts like it were a holiday they missed..
    I hope that all this nostalgia gets us somewhere...take care



    this line: ' I remember when she climbed onto the wagon
    just for me...' tugged and my heart strings...well said
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  • (12/19/2005 5:28:00 PM)

    A wonderful meditation that draws back, at the right time, from being maudlin. The strong pathos comes through but there is almost a touch of humour to it as well. (Report) Reply

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Poem Submitted: Monday, December 19, 2005

Poem Edited: Thursday, October 11, 2007

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