Together Poem by shiny shine

Together forever you promised
So long ago
But last year when you left me for more than six months
I felt abandoned
Wishing I had you to help me through
You showed up when I needed you the most
So I let you back in
Something that I should not have done
For now I am all alone again
Feeling hopeless and disappointed
Because you hurt me worse than anyone ever has
After everything I have helped you through
You turn around and stab me in the back
Pushing me until I feel like I am ready to break
So upset with myself for allowing you back in my life so easily
You now have made me believe
I have to build that wall back up around me
Which took so long to bring down
Feeling betrayed
I trusted you with everything
In return you took advantage of me
That is what hurts
I could get over you lieing to me
But not with something as important as what you did
That hurts the most
You knew what I was going through and I was trusting you but still you lied to me
Yeah it is hard getting over you but
Deep down I know that you do not deserve me
I will never know how far we could have took “us”
Because of how bad you hurt me
I felt so close to you
Like you understood
But when I found out the truth that connection was automatically broke
I became hurt and I knew that I could not trust in you anymore
I’m not going to sit here and try to stop you from leaving
More importantly though I am not going to break down and cry
I know that I am stonger than that
Knowing that what you did makes it to the point where you no longer deserve me
I could let the anger get to me but I won’t
I am moving on but thanks to you it will take a long time until I trust a guy the way I trusted you
You know how hard it is for me to open up and I fully did with you
Look where that got me
Now I just sit here and wonder what else you could have lied to me about
Hoping that you realize how bad you screwed up and all that you lost
Living life each day not letting you get to me
Wishing I could go back in time and never have let you back in
Hating the way you want me to forgive you
That’s not going to happen anytime soon because my heart is shattered
And I know if who you lied about was still here he would be ashamed of you
He told you when he was dying to take care of me and you lied to him
I hate you for that and I will never forgive you
You have hurt me one to many times
I always turned to you
Always thinking of you as a brother and more to me
We had a fire before
Now all that is left is ashes
My heart needs to rest
I can’t stand talking to you
Because I know I will yell and scream at you
Hating you for everything you have said to me
Not even crying because you are gone because I am so mad at you
You have done enough to bring me to my knees
But baby you don’t deserve that
So I will remain strong
You should know that
You will never win me back
You didn’t just mess up and you defiantly don’t deserve my forgiveness
Because you lied to me about the most important thing in my life when I needed you the most
I just wish I would have caught your lies than instead on now
Your there begging me
“baby please give me another chance I love you, I can’t go on without you, I didn’t mean to hurt you”.
I don’t care though you dug a hole that you will never get out of
Dug that knife to deep in my heart than pulled it out
I have never been so mad
So upset with myself
Not caring your gone
Because I to am to blame
Leaving me speechless
I should have known it was to good to be true