Meena Kandasamy

(1984 - / Chennai / India)

Apologies For Living On - Poem by Meena Kandasamy

I am living on
because providing apologies is easy

once—

i was making choices
with insanely safe ideas of
fleeing-madly-and-flying-away

i was a helpless girl
against the brutal world of
bottom-patting-and-breast-pinching

i was craving for security
the kind i had only known while
aimlessly-afloat-and-speculating-in-the- womb

now—

i am locked away
a terrified princess waiting
for-death-and-not-any-brave-prince

i don’t dream or think
i just remember and wince
at-voices-of-the-past-smirking-in-sarcas m

once—

i ran away in the darkness
nothing beaconed me more than the
prospect-of-solitude-and-the-caress-of-a-m illion-stars

i ran into the arms of the ravishing night
nothing pulled me back: not even the memories
of-love-i-had-once-known-&-stolen-kis ses-savoured-for-so-long.

i ran until terror stopped my tracks
for, trembling i turned and saw that the moon was
another-immodest-ogler-and-lecherous-stalk er.

(First published in Great Works, UK)


Comments about Apologies For Living On by Meena Kandasamy

  • Narayanan Kutty Pozhath (5/2/2018 9:52:00 AM)

    Very beautiful words, bottom patting and breast pinching, I appreciate your imagination. Very good poem. (Report)Reply

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  • Subhas Chandra Chakra (3/10/2018 9:01:00 AM)

    You are greater than the great Maya Angelou..One day you are going even to a higher strata that she had.. I loved every inch of the soil on the Earth that this poem creates.
    Loved your poem as a whole.
    10+++++
    Subhas
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  • Susan Williams (1/18/2018 1:14:00 PM)

    This poem has such- -immediacy. The pain is in every letter of every word. The torture of a young female is abominable in any society, in any country, in any soul. I cringe for a girl who is compelled to apologize for living on. Onto my fav list (Report)Reply

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  • Savita Tyagi (1/18/2018 10:18:00 AM)

    Impressive and piercing words. Ongrarulations for a deserving member poem place. (Report)Reply

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  • (1/18/2018 9:24:00 AM)

    Awesome poem. Like to read again and again. Enjoyed. (Report)Reply

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  • Yusuf Qomor Olusola (1/18/2018 3:57:00 AM)

    The tittle alone is pregnant of meaning already. A very thoughtful write! (Report)Reply

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  • (1/18/2018 1:55:00 AM)

    Oh this is so insightful and composed stunningly with words so touching.........great work by a great poetess
    .......outstanding.........thanks for sharing
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  • Bernard F. Asuncion (1/18/2018 1:45:00 AM)

    Meena, such a brilliant write... congrats for being chosen.... a huge 10+++ (Report)Reply

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  • (1/8/2018 11:03:00 PM)

    Want the theme and analysis of the poem (Report)Reply

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  • Ravindran Govindaraju (9/11/2013 1:07:00 AM)

    The moon was another stalker..reminds me of that immodest trail, ..chaser (Report)Reply

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Poem Submitted: Wednesday, June 20, 2012



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