As I Used To Be. Poem by Ann Beard

As I Used To Be.

Rating: 5.0

A sombre day made only for reflection,
every second lasts the longest hour.
My mind a trap for kindest moments
is a garden full of every kind of flower.

Each petal holds the key to recollection,
that dementia does it’s utmost to devour

Thoughts are weightless like the kiss of rain
I feel no pain, shed not one salty tear.
You left me for other side of darkness
taking all but memories of year to year.

While the chattering of time grows fainter
just me and only loneliness to fear.

My ring the once substantial band of gold
A symbol of our hope in poor disguise,
that together we would live forever.
Now is shrunken to one third its former size.

But sometimes I remember when as lovers
drowning in the blueness of your eyes.

I struggle to pierce through glib elusiveness
Sweet peace of mind where can you be.
Do you hide in age and its decrepitness.
have mercy, take me back, let me see.

I feel my loved one near, but have to wonder
does he see my confusion, or me, as I used to be.

Roan Apr.2008

Philip Housiaux 12 May 2008

I must say this is a moving and skilled write. metaphors so touching for dementia - thoughts as light as rain. Metre and rhyme without loss of gentle flowing content. Did you deliberately choose to move between iambic and trochee verse for pathos? A poem to be proud of.

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Bob Gibson 10 April 2008

Were stronger now, than we yous't ter be!

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Bob Gibson 10 April 2008

I love that first verse of your poem Ann! it gripped me!

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Emancipation Planz 07 April 2008

Oh Ann... your sadness continues.....10derly Deana

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Howard Johnson 04 April 2008

Enjoyed the word flow and feelings personified in this piece, Thank you for sharing Ann

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Simone Inez Harriman 24 November 2015

Sigh.....Ann this is STUNNING! ! ! . I was captivated from the first stanza to the last. Beautifully poignantly penned...10

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Sally Plumb Plumb 28 May 2015

An in depth poem of great meaning. Thanks for sharing.

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Laurie Hill 11 April 2009

Beautiful words, a beautiful write, so captivating, so very very pensive. A very touching piece..10++++

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Meggie Gultiano 03 February 2009

the flow of your words are so lovely, this is a great write, and touching, , that i wanted to read and re read again.Thank you for sharing this, Ann.Take care of you. Hugs from here, Meggie

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Ron Flowers 26 January 2009

Sad, sweet and so beautiful. If this is not a 10 there are no 10's. Warm regards Ron

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