jeremy stalhood

Rookie (same / Toledo, Ohio)

Have You Ever

Poem by jeremy stalhood

Have you ever understood my life
How I tried to end it with a knife
But before this trial and error
When I first knew I was a failure
I grew up not knowing my real parents
How they didn’t care, and let me from there hands
Into somebody else’s, this is where it all started
Where my life became a movie, an R rated
Being picked on for being an ugly geek
Getting beat with pipes and boards, slapped on the cheek
And you’d think this would be a bully
But really it was the opposite, it was my family
No love for the reject, no love for the outcast
Lets just hurt him, embarrass him, give him a past
My whole life has been this, or something close to it
Until I thought I could fix it, time to abandon ship
Pop pills, cut my neck, none seemed to work
Maybe I could stab my self with a fork
Jump off a building, or stand in the highway
I just had to end my suffering, somehow, someway
But it never succeeded, I never left this earth
I’m still here, broken and needing rebirth
So I am someone else, someone with meaning
Somebody that’s loved, somebody with feeling
But that wont happen, ill live someway or another
So now you can ask yourself, have you ever

Comments about Have You Ever by jeremy stalhood

  • Allison Ganues (9/15/2008 8:10:00 PM)

    i sry you had to go threw this and i kno this is before we met but i do love you and always
    will no matter what i just hope we can make it threw this and get back together i need u i miss u n i love you so much


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  • Mary Nagy (4/9/2005 10:01:00 PM)

    I can sure feel your pain Jeremy...Very intense...I wouldn't change a thing with this poem no matter what any comments say, your feelings are real and thats how they should be written. I'm assuming this is autobiographical, I think we all go through our pain for a reason....let it make you stronger. One day you'll learn why God chose you to have the life you have. (I tell myself that and believe it or not, it helps) :) Writing helps alot too...I look forward to reading more from you. Sincerely, Mary(Report)Reply

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  • Adriana Cruz (4/9/2005 12:09:00 PM)

    i thought it was definitely an interesting subject matter, and i feel for the person in the poem (if it is you, in any case) , but it seemed like you tried too hard to make the lines rhyme and so it didnt seem to flow just naturally.(Report)Reply

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Poem Submitted: Saturday, April 9, 2005

Poem Edited: Monday, May 3, 2010